Inner Thoughts

Works numbed my senses...

Excursion calmed my emotions...

Songs heal my heart...

Books heal my soul...

Heaven of books

Went into the book store, looking around searching the book I wanted to buy, unfortunately it was out of stock *sigh*. Been searhing for it for almost 3 weeks now..oh noo...Anyway there are lots more books I wanted to buy and read, all book seems appealing to me, is like heaven, the moment I stepped into the book store-like a kid stepping into the wonderland..haha..

Never have I thought I would love books as much as I did now...used to hate reading when I was in school, used to think reading is a boring activity, used to love watching TV..not anymore, its been months since I last watched TV. Books is like my little TV and entertainment, reading generates endless image in my mind, illustrate images and scences I love and draw imagination.

Used to make fun of how human could survive without a TV..haha..looks who's laughing now..

Don't Forget

Did you forget, that I was even alive
Did you forget, everything we ever had
Did you forget, did you forget
About me

Did you regret, ever standing by my side
Did you forget, what we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget, about us.

But somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess, this is where we have to stand
Did you regret, ever holding my hand
Never again, please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget
About us

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last, all the pictures have been burned
And all the past, is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten

About us...

Out of the picture

How does it feels when everyone ignored you during a conversation or not listening to what you are trying to say, and to be left out of the subject matter most of the time?

It feels kind of tired thou, because 1) i'm not an attention seeker, I doesn't born with that syndrome, 2) I find myself annoy and irritate others if I were to repeat myself again, and 3) It feels suck!

Just do not know what is the purpose of living, mingling, socializing and etc...etc...what? to survive?

Does people even consider and know how that person (neglected by) feels? Probably not...because 1) I'm not from a wealthy family, 2) I do no have any status in the society nor hold any power to influence certain things, and 3) They don't get anything if they use me (material wise).

Or it's just simply because 1) I looked less expressive?, 2) I somehow looked arrogant because I don't stay in contact?, or 3) I'm being disliked?

First, I looked less expressive because I'm shy even though I don't look like one.

Second, I don't stay in contact because most of the time I found that people just dislike my existence.

Third, being disliked? because of what? I've never step on anyones' tail before, maybe a few but it was all just a normal and average talking and chit-chatting, joking, nothing serious..

Well the world is wonderful, lived with all sorts of characters, just bare with it...

Lost Soul

There's no light ahead...
There's no door to open...
There's no grip...
There's no sign...
There's no sound...

Everything is undone... incomplete...

Where to go...
Where to search...
Where to start...
Where to reach...

How to move ahead...

Thoughts are everywhere... messy...confusing...insecure...

Religion has always been a(n) issue/hurdles when it comes to relationship

Cruelty...

"Its so cruel to separate a pair of love birds and send it to hell"

All I can defined the above topic is cruelty...
When the moment I mentioned the word-Muslim to my mom, it actually sent chills down her spine. Which most of us can roughly guest how she reacted and what she said.

I'm sure many couples out there may have experienced the same situation, where parents disapproved or forbidden their children to marry or be with a Muslim (no offense), or disapproved their children to be with someone that holds a different religion. Choosing between family and relationship is a darn tough decision, unless to those that do not love their family or vice versa.

Why its has to be so hard and religion has always become an issue when it comes to relationship? After all, religion is something that we hold in our lives, a cultural or behavioural aspect that teaches or mould every humans or mortals on earth to become a good person. But still there are so many meanie still living and surviving in this world.

Here is a dedication to my special one and also to all sincere & loyal lovers and love birds out there...

Your love is like a perfect addiction, like a drug..
I would have to scream if ever I've to let lose..
Just like those drug addict who tries to stay away..
Screaming loud every second to quit, not to touch..
Shaking every moment not to have it..
Every moment of not having it, feels like dying..

Thirst for your love...
Heart shattered knowing I couldn't reach out for you yet you are so near..

ColorOn Professional: Eye Envy

I found this interesting product from a website, this product is highly innovative, it was smartly designed and created to suits the target consumers' needs.

"Makeup artist-Irina Losilevich patented an instant-beauty technology with her press-on eye-shadows 16 years ago, yet it is only last year that her Color On Professional ™ eye-shadow kits, dubbed Eye Envy, started garnering national attention, perhaps international attention for now"

A patented, revolutionary application technology, colorOn Professional is so easy, fast and fun to use that it appeals to everyone, from the makeup junkie to the makeup artist to the makeup-averse. Imagine pillowy-soft disposable applicators already laden with mineral cosmetic eyeshadows in colors and designs ranging from subtle daytime to smoldering evening looks, created to suit every skin tone and ethnicity. These mineral eye-shadows are ready to apply and are meant to last a long, long time. The brand promises to deliver the kind of polished look only a professional makeup artist could easily achieve. These are single-use, hygienic, hypoallergenic applicators that require no makeup skills, no brushes or secondary applicators. Imagine an eye shadow that is waterproof, crease-proof, and long-wearing that transfers to the eyelid with just a touch. The result is nothing short of amazing: A professional, flawless look every time.

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Is More Than Meets The Eye

"Eyes are your most expressive facial feature. Eyes are best beauty asset and they express moods and emotions."

-Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder-

The shape of your eyes is important in determining your overall facial feature and how pretty you are. Based on my personal interpretation: If someone has a pair of beautiful eyes therefore he or she is pretty or handsome. Seriously! try to observe a few friends of yours. When you are judging someone is pretty or not, you are most likely to look at that person's eyes first, then only you look at their overall facial feature, the smile...etc.

This doesn't mean that you must have BIG eyes to be pretty, everyone have their own uniqueness, it is all depend on how each and everyone interprets it. Just like Lucy Liu, her eyes is not that big, but her eyes does brings out and enhance her facial feature and beauty. Eyes that are TOO big, sometimes, I find it scary.

But definitely, other than facial feature, prettiness, inner beauty, personality, characteristics and etc is "importante" too!