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Good things worth the wait

It has been quite a while already-not updating my blog and write stuffs, can't write at all for the past few months, emotionless I guess, I can express only when sorrows arrived.

It has been a while not feeling the sorrows anymore, still it will come once in a while.. but lately somehow feels like it has completely gone.

I found something priceless and precious lately. Never thought I would found love. And I did. Glad I did. Someone said this to me before "be patient and something good will happen to you". I took the advice and waited, and eventually it came. I could finally smile now, somehow it feels so safe and secure. Eventually, things around me became more colourful, more alive, meaningful, basically it's all sugar, spice and everything nice. Ahahahahhaa... and yet all kind of questions came into my mind, would things ended just as quick or it will fade away someday... Anyhow, I'm glad that I've found you.

Sorrows

Things are pretty much unpredictable, how will one able to determine what's gonna happen next? Life wouldn't be as happening if one knows what's gonna happen tomorrow, life wouldn't be as challenging, life wouldn't be as fun, life wouldn't be as sad, life wouldn't be as happy...etc. But at the same time, it is painful and frightening. Things might be all well going now and the next thing you know it might just be as horrible as it seems. And when certain things gone wrong, it might just felt like the world is collapsing or sometimes things are as hurtful as loneliness. And when happiness is mine, felt as if it's never true or too good to be true and always it doesn't last long...

Whenever happiness passes by, it has never stop by for too long...I don't even have the chance to hold it and the next thing I know it has disappear...

Inner Thoughts

Works numbed my senses...

Excursion calmed my emotions...

Songs heal my heart...

Books heal my soul...

Heaven of books

Went into the book store, looking around searching the book I wanted to buy, unfortunately it was out of stock *sigh*. Been searhing for it for almost 3 weeks now..oh noo...Anyway there are lots more books I wanted to buy and read, all book seems appealing to me, is like heaven, the moment I stepped into the book store-like a kid stepping into the wonderland..haha..

Never have I thought I would love books as much as I did now...used to hate reading when I was in school, used to think reading is a boring activity, used to love watching TV..not anymore, its been months since I last watched TV. Books is like my little TV and entertainment, reading generates endless image in my mind, illustrate images and scences I love and draw imagination.

Used to make fun of how human could survive without a TV..haha..looks who's laughing now..

Don't Forget

Did you forget, that I was even alive
Did you forget, everything we ever had
Did you forget, did you forget
About me

Did you regret, ever standing by my side
Did you forget, what we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget, about us.

But somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess, this is where we have to stand
Did you regret, ever holding my hand
Never again, please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget
About us

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last, all the pictures have been burned
And all the past, is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten

About us...

Out of the picture

How does it feels when everyone ignored you during a conversation or not listening to what you are trying to say, and to be left out of the subject matter most of the time?

It feels kind of tired thou, because 1) i'm not an attention seeker, I doesn't born with that syndrome, 2) I find myself annoy and irritate others if I were to repeat myself again, and 3) It feels suck!

Just do not know what is the purpose of living, mingling, socializing and etc...etc...what? to survive?

Does people even consider and know how that person (neglected by) feels? Probably not...because 1) I'm not from a wealthy family, 2) I do no have any status in the society nor hold any power to influence certain things, and 3) They don't get anything if they use me (material wise).

Or it's just simply because 1) I looked less expressive?, 2) I somehow looked arrogant because I don't stay in contact?, or 3) I'm being disliked?

First, I looked less expressive because I'm shy even though I don't look like one.

Second, I don't stay in contact because most of the time I found that people just dislike my existence.

Third, being disliked? because of what? I've never step on anyones' tail before, maybe a few but it was all just a normal and average talking and chit-chatting, joking, nothing serious..

Well the world is wonderful, lived with all sorts of characters, just bare with it...

Lost Soul

There's no light ahead...
There's no door to open...
There's no grip...
There's no sign...
There's no sound...

Everything is undone... incomplete...

Where to go...
Where to search...
Where to start...
Where to reach...

How to move ahead...

Thoughts are everywhere... messy...confusing...insecure...